"Sometimes I remind myself that I almost skipped the party, that I almost went to a different college, that the whim of a minute could have changed everything and everyone. Our lives, so settled, so specific, are built on happenstance."
These, for me, are the two most depressing paintings in western history. They were painted by post-impressionist Henry de Toulouse-Lautrec, a man who, due to inbreeding, was born with a genetic disorder that prevented his legs from growing after they were broken. After being so thoroughly mocked for is appearance, he became an alcoholic, which is what eventually caused his institutionalization and death. His only known romantic relations were with prostitutes.
And then he paints something like this which is so beautiful and tender and sentimental. It seems like the couple in bed really loves each other—cares about each other. Wakes up happy to look at each other. And I see that love and passion and I wonder how lonely he must have been. I wonder how he could paint something like this without it breaking his heart.
Maybe they say artists should create what they know, not because its unbelievable when they extend themselves beyond their experiences, but because when they pull it off with such elegance, it’s so damn unbearable to look at. I hate thinking of Lautrec, wondering about the lovers he created and knowing it was beyond his experience. Creating something that he knows is beautiful and knows he’ll never really understand.
"I am made for autumn. Summer and I have a fickle relationship, but everything about autumn is perfect to me. Wooly jumpers, Wellington boot, scarves, thin first, then thick, socks. The low slanting light, the crisp mornings, the chill in my fingers, those last warm sunny days before the rain and the wind. Her moody hues and subdued palate punctuated every now and again by a brilliant orange, scarlet or copper goodbye. She is my true love."
"If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way."
"Look, you overgrown sack of stupid, just cause I’m pretty doesn’t mean I won’t fuck you the fuck up."
"Theatre is, at its roots, some very brave people mutually consenting to a make believe world, with nothing but language to rest on."
Siempre hay un mañana y la vida nos da otra oportunidad para hacer las cosas bien, pero por si me equivoco y hoy es todo lo que nos queda, me gustaría decirte cuanto te quiero, que nunca te olvidaré.
El mañana no le está asegurado a nadie, joven o viejo. Hoy puede ser la última vez que veas a los que amas. Por eso no esperes más, hazlo hoy, ya que si el mañana nunca llega, seguramente lamentarás el día que no tomaste tiempo para una sonrisa, un abrazo, un beso y que estuviste muy ocupado para concederles un último deseo.
Mantén a los que amas cerca de ti, diles al oído lo mucho que los necesitas, quiérelos y trátalos bien, toma tiempo para decirles “lo siento”, “perdóname”, “por favor”, “gracias” y todas las palabras de amor que conoces.
Nadie te recordará por tus pensamientos secretos. Pide al Señor la fuerza y sabiduría para expresarlos. Demuestra a tus amigos y seres queridos cuanto te importan.
Gabriel García Márquez
"There’s always tomorrow, and life gives us another opportunity to make things right, but if I’m mistaken and today is all we have left, I would tell you how much I love you, I’ll never forget.
Tomorrow is not guaranteed to anyone, young or old. Today could be the last time you see those you love. So do not wait, do it today as if tomorrow never comes, you will regret the day you did not take time for a smile, a hug, a kiss because you were too busy to grant one last wish.
Keep those you love close to you, get close to their ear and tell them how much you need them, love them and treat them well, take time to say “sorry,” “forgive me,” “please,” “thank you” and all the words of love you know.
Nobody will remember you for your secret thoughts. Ask the Lord for wisdom and strength to express them. Show your friends and loved ones how much you care.”
Robin Williams in Bengal Tiger at the Baghdad Zoo.
(If you are struggling with depression and don’t see a way out, call and get help: 1-800-273-8255. The world is better with you in it.)